Title: I Love You Puppeedo!
Tags: Puppeedo Doki Sunshinee Fluffy McFluffokin
Article Entry: I am not sure how to start this blog post. I guess I'll get right to the point. On Tuesday 09/06/11, my dog (baby) had to be put down due to cancer. It all happened so fast. Keith is writing a blog that will detail all the things that happened so I won't do it again in this blog. We hope by writing the sequence of symptoms and signs that it may help someone else in a similar situation. Once Keith's blog is finished, I will post the link here. At this moment I still can't believe Doki (Puppeedo) is gone. I think the hardest times for me are in the morning and before I go to bed. I miss how goofy his hair looked when he woke up in the morning. I miss checking up on him throughout the day when I am at home to see what he is up to. I miss petting and kissing him good night before going to bed. I miss singing " You are my sunshine " to him. I miss telling him he is a good boy and that his mommy loves him very much. I miss being able to just look at him. I miss everything about him. I wish everyday that I could just have him back. I wish I could hear him fluffing up his bed. I wish I could hear the pitter patter of his feet on our floors. I wish I could wake up and see his cute fluffy face staring at me, telling me its time to get out of bed. It only makes me more sad knowing that no matter how much I wish that it can never be but I can't help myself. It doesn't need to be said that I haven't been sewing at all. I feel a sense of guilt if I go on with my daily life without him. Keith tells me that Doki knows how much I love him but I feel like doing something I enjoy really isn't showing him how much he meant to me. I had a crazy thought the other day that maybe Doki had to go because Keith and I might get pregnant and he would be our baby. Keith said that would only work if our baby was a boy. That made me laugh because I could never imagine Doki being a girl. Eventhough Doki was so fluffy and cute, he was definitely a boy. Talking to Keith about all the happy times with Puppeedo really helps. I try not to think about his last days because that is not how he would want us to remember him. I've never been big on photographs but now I wish I had taken so many more of him. I never thought he would be taken away so young. Keith and I always talked about him being around when we had kids. I even tested him by bothering him when he was napping to see if he would get irritated. Puppeedo would just look at me and then go on napping. Keith and I couldn't have asked for a better Puppeedo (I don't really like calling him a dog). He was so intertwined with my happiness. I really want to do something to honor him for all the things he taught me and the joy he brought into my life. Keith suggested that I make Puppeedo pillows and donate part of the proceeds to an animal shelter. I really liked that idea since I could look at Puppeedo all day while I sewed. I'll probably get started on this project as soon as I can stop crying when I look at his photos. Soggy pillows are probably not going to sell too well. Another idea to honor Puppeedo was to get a bronze statue of him. I really wanted a beautiful memorial for him. I had no idea it would be in the thousands which is definitely out of budget. I did find a website that allowed me to post my job and budget to freelance artist who were able to create a life size sculpture of him. They gave me many suggestions for different materials that might be more affordable. I am still in the process of narrowing the material and the specific artist. I hope I find the perfect artist that can capture how beautiful and lovable Pupeedo was. Doki, Puppeedo, Sunshinee, Fluffy Mcfluffokin...Mommy loves and misses you!!! -----Yafei-----09/09/11
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